Autobiography of a Yogi
Paramhansa Yogananda
Chapter 27
Founding a Yoga School
at Ranchi
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"Why are
you averse to organizational work?"
Master's
question startled me a bit. It is true that my private conviction at the time was that
organizations were "hornets' nests."
"It is a
thankless task, sir," I answered. "No matter what the leader does or does not,
he is criticized."
"Do you
want the whole divine channa (milk curd) for yourself alone?" My guru's retort was
accompanied by a stern glance. "Could you or anyone else achieve God-contact through
yoga if a line of generous-hearted masters had not been willing to convey their knowledge
to others?" He added, "God is the Honey, organizations are the hives; both are
necessary. Any form is useless, of course, without the spirit, but why should you not
start busy hives full of the spiritual nectar?"
His counsel
moved me deeply. Although I made no outward reply, an adamant resolution arose in my
breast: I would share with my fellows, so far as lay in my power, the unshackling truths I
had learned at my guru's feet. "Lord," I prayed, "may Thy Love shine
forever on the sanctuary of my devotion, and may I be able to awaken that Love in other
hearts."
On a previous
occasion, before I had joined the monastic order, Sri Yukteswar had made a most unexpected
remark.
"How you
will miss the companionship of a wife in your old age!" he had said. "Do you not
agree that the family man, engaged in useful work to maintain his wife and children, thus
plays a rewarding role in God's eyes?"
"Sir,"
I had protested in alarm, "you know that my desire in this life is to espouse only
the Cosmic Beloved."
Master had
laughed so merrily that I understood his observation was made merely as a test of my
faith.
"Remember,"
he had said slowly, "that he who discards his worldly duties can justify himself only
by assuming some kind of responsibility toward a much larger family."
The ideal of
an all-sided education for youth had always been close to my heart. I saw clearly the arid
results of ordinary instruction, aimed only at the development of body and intellect.
Moral and spiritual values, without whose appreciation no man can approach happiness, were
yet lacking in the formal curriculum. I determined to found a school where young boys
could develop to the full stature of manhood. My first step in that direction was made
with seven children at Dihika, a small country site in Bengal.
A year later,
in 1918, through the generosity of Sir Manindra Chandra Nundy, the Maharaja of Kasimbazar,
I was able to transfer my fast-growing group to Ranchi. This town in Bihar, about two
hundred miles from Calcutta, is blessed with one of the most healthful climates in India.
The Kasimbazar Palace at Ranchi was transformed into the headquarters for the new school,
which I called Brahmacharya Vidyalaya in
accordance with the educational ideals of the rishis. Their forest ashrams had been the
ancient seats of learning, secular and divine, for the youth of India.
At Ranchi I
organized an educational program for both grammar and high school grades. It included
agricultural, industrial, commercial, and academic subjects. The students were also taught
yoga concentration and meditation, and a unique system of physical development,
"Yogoda," whose principles I had discovered in 1916.
Realizing
that man's body is like an electric battery, I reasoned that it could be recharged with
energy through the direct agency of the human will. As no action, slight or large, is
possible without willing, man can avail himself of his prime mover, will, to renew his
bodily tissues without burdensome apparatus or mechanical exercises. I therefore taught
the Ranchi students my simple "Yogoda" techniques by which the life force,
centred in man's medulla oblongata, can be consciously and instantly recharged from the
unlimited supply of cosmic energy.
The boys
responded wonderfully to this training, developing extraordinary ability to shift the life
energy from one part of the body to another part, and to sit in perfect poise in difficult
body postures. They performed
feats of strength and endurance which many powerful adults could not equal. My youngest
brother, Bishnu Charan Ghosh, joined the Ranchi school; he later became a leading physical
culturist in Bengal. He and one of his students traveled to Europe and America, giving
exhibitions of strength and skill which amazed the university savants, including those at
Columbia University in New York.
At the end of
the first year at Ranchi, applications for admission reached two thousand. But the school,
which at that time was solely residential, could accommodate only about one hundred.
Instruction for day students was soon added.
In the
Vidyalaya I had to play father-mother to the little children, and to cope with many
organizational difficulties. I often remembered Christ's words: "Verily I say unto
you, There is no man that hath left house, or brethren or sisters, or father, or mother,
or wife, or children, or lands, for my sake, and the gospel's, but he shall receive an
hundredfold now in this time, houses and brethren, and sisters, and mothers, and children,
and lands, with persecutions; and in the world to come eternal life." Sri
Yukteswar had interpreted these words: "The devotee who forgoes the life-experiences
of marriage and family, and exchanges the problems of a small household and limited
activities for the larger responsibilities of service to society in general, is
undertaking a task which is often accompanied by persecution from a misunderstanding
world, but also by a divine inner contentment."
One day my
father arrived in Ranchi to bestow a paternal blessing, long withheld because I had hurt
him by refusing his offer of a position with the Bengal-Nagpur Railway.
"Son,"
he said, "I am now reconciled to your choice in life. It gives me joy to see you
amidst these happy, eager youngsters; you belong here rather than with the lifeless
figures of railroad timetables." He waved toward a group of a dozen little ones who
were tagging at my heels. "I had only eight children," he observed with
twinkling eyes, "but I can feel for you!"
With a large
fruit orchard and twenty-five fertile acres at our disposal, the students, teachers, and
myself enjoyed many happy hours of outdoor labor in these ideal surroundings. We had many
pets, including a young deer who was fairly idolized by the children. I too loved the fawn
so much that I allowed it to sleep in my room. At the light of dawn, the little creature
would toddle over to my bed for a morning caress.
One day I fed
the pet earlier than usual, as I had to attend to some business in the town of Ranchi.
Although I cautioned the boys not to feed the fawn until my return, one of them was
disobedient, and gave the baby deer a large quantity of milk. When I came back in the
evening, sad news greeted me: "The little fawn is nearly dead, through over
feeding."
In tears, I
placed the apparently lifeless pet on my lap. I prayed piteously to God to spare its life.
Hours later, the small creature opened its eyes, stood up, and walked feebly. The whole
school shouted for joy.
But a deep
lesson came to me that night, one I can never forget. I stayed up with the fawn until two
o'clock, when I fell asleep. The deer appeared in a dream, and spoke to me:
"You are
holding me back. Please let me go; let me go!"
"All
right," I answered in the dream.
I awoke
immediately, and cried out, "Boys, the deer is dying!" The children rushed to my
side.
I ran to the
corner of the room where I had placed the pet. It made a last effort to rise, stumbled
toward me, then dropped at my feet, dead.
According to
the mass karma which guides and regulates the destinies of animals, the deer's life was
over, and it was ready to progress to a higher form. But by my deep attachment, which I
later realized was selfish, and by my fervent prayers, I had been able to hold it in the
limitations of the animal form from which the soul was struggling for release. The soul of
the deer made its plea in a dream because, without my loving permission, it either would
not or could not go. As soon as I agreed, it departed.
All sorrow
left me; I realized anew that God wants His children to love everything as a part of Him,
and not to feel delusively that death ends all. The ignorant man sees only the
unsurmountable wall of death, hiding, seemingly forever, his cherished friends. But the
man of unattachment, he who loves others as expressions of the Lord, understands that at
death the dear ones have only returned for a breathing-space of joy in Him.
The Ranchi
school grew from small and simple beginnings to an institution now well-known in India.
Many departments of the school are supported by voluntary contributions from those who
rejoice in perpetuating the educational ideals of the rishis. Under the general name of
Yogoda Sat-Sanga, flourishing
branch schools have been established at Midnapore, Lakshmanpur, and Puri.
The Ranchi
headquarters maintains a Medical Department where medicines and the services of doctors
are supplied freely to the poor of the locality. The number treated has averaged more than
18,000 persons a year. The Vidyalaya has made its mark, too, in Indian competitive sports,
and in the scholastic field, where many Ranchi alumni have distinguished themselves in
later university life.
The school,
now in its twenty-eighth year and the center of many activities, has been
honored by visits of eminent men from the East and the West. One of the earliest great
figures to inspect the Vidyalaya in its first year was Swami Pranabananda, the Benares
"saint with two bodies." As the great master viewed the picturesque outdoor
classes, held under the trees, and saw in the evening that young boys were sitting
motionless for hours in yoga meditation, he was profoundly moved.
"Joy
comes to my heart," he said, "to see that Lahiri Mahasaya's ideals for the
proper training of youth are being carried on in this institution. My guru's blessings be
on it."
A young lad
sitting by my side ventured to ask the great yogi a question.
"Sir,"
he said, "shall I be a monk? Is my life only for God?"
Though Swami
Pranabananda smiled gently, his eyes were piercing the future.
"Child,"
he replied, "when you grow up, there is a beautiful bride waiting for you." The
boy did eventually marry, after having planned for years to enter the Swami Order.
Sometime
after Swami Pranabananda had visited Ranchi, I accompanied my father to the Calcutta house
where the yogi was temporarily staying. Pranabananda's prediction, made to me so many
years before, came rushing to my mind: "I shall see you, with your father, later
on."
As Father
entered the swami's room, the great yogi rose from his seat and embraced my parent with
loving respect.
"Bhagabati,"
he said, "what are you doing about yourself? Don't you see your son racing to the
Infinite?" I blushed to hear his praise before my father. The swami went on,
"You recall how often our blessed guru used to say: 'Banat, banat, ban jai.' So
keep up Kriya Yoga ceaselessly, and reach the divine portals quickly."
The body of
Pranabananda, which had appeared so well and strong during my amazing first visit to him
in Benares, now showed definite aging, though his posture was still admirably erect.
"Swamiji,"
I inquired, looking straight into his eyes, "please tell me the truth: Aren't you
feeling the advance of age? As the body is weakening, are your perceptions of God
suffering any diminution?"
He smiled
angelically. "The Beloved is more than ever with me now." His complete
conviction overwhelmed my mind and soul. He went on, "I am still enjoying the two
pensionsone from Bhagabati here, and one from above." Pointing his finger
heavenward, the saint fell into an ecstasy, his face lit with a divine glowan ample
answer to my question.
Noticing that
Pranabananda's room contained many plants and packages of seed, I asked their purpose.
"I have
left Benares permanently," he said, "and am now on my way to the Himalayas.
There I shall open an ashram for my disciples. These seeds will produce spinach and a few
other vegetables. My dear ones will live simply, spending their time in blissful
God-union. Nothing else is necessary."
Father asked
his brother disciple when he would return to Calcutta.
"Never
again," the saint replied. "This year is the one in which Lahiri Mahasaya told
me I would leave my beloved Benares forever and go to the Himalayas, there to throw off my
mortal frame."
My eyes
filled with tears at his words, but the swami smiled tranquilly. He reminded me of a
little heavenly child, sitting securely on the lap of the Divine Mother. The burden of the
years has no ill effect on a great yogi's full possession of supreme spiritual powers. He
is able to renew his body at will; yet sometimes he does not care to retard the aging
process, but allows his karma to work itself out on the physical plane, using his old body
as a time-saving device to exclude the necessity of working out karma in a new
incarnation.
Months later
I met an old friend, Sanandan, who was one of Pranabananda's close disciples.
"My
adorable guru is gone," he told me, amidst sobs. "He established a hermitage
near Rishikesh, and gave us loving training. When we were pretty well settled, and making
rapid spiritual progress in his company, he proposed one day to feed a huge crowd from
Rishikesh. I inquired why he wanted such a large number.
"'This
is my last festival ceremony,' he said. I did not understand the full implications of his
words.
"Pranabanandaji
helped with the cooking of great amounts of food. We fed about 2000 guests. After the
feast, he sat on a high platform and gave an inspired sermon on the Infinite. At the end,
before the gaze of thousands, he turned to me, as I sat beside him on the dais, and spoke
with unusual force.
"'Sanandan,
be prepared; I am going to kick the frame.
"After a
stunned silence, I cried loudly, 'Master, don't do it! Please, please, don't do it!' The
crowd was tongue-tied, watching us curiously. My guru smiled at me, but his solemn gaze
was already fixed on Eternity.
"'Be not
selfish,' he said, 'nor grieve for me. I have been long cheerfully serving you all; now
rejoice and wish me Godspeed. I go to meet my Cosmic Beloved.' In a whisper,
Pranabanandaji added, 'I shall be reborn shortly. After enjoying a short period of the
Infinite Bliss, I shall return to earth and join Babaji. You shall soon
know when and where my soul has been encased in a new body.'
"He
cried again, 'Sanandan, here I kick the frame by the second Kriya Yoga.'
"He looked at the sea of faces before us, and gave a blessing.
Directing his gaze inwardly to the spiritual eye, he became immobile. While the bewildered
crowd thought he was meditating in an ecstatic state, he had already left the tabernacle
of flesh and plunged his soul into the cosmic vastness. The disciples touched his body,
seated in the lotus posture, but it was no longer the warm flesh. Only a stiffened frame
remained; the tenant had fled to the immortal shore."
I inquired
where Pranabananda was to be reborn.
"That's
a sacred trust I cannot divulge to anyone," Sanandan replied. "Perhaps you may
find out some other way."
Years later I discovered from Swami Keshabananda that Pranabananda, a few years after his birth in a new body, had gone to Badrinarayan in the Himalayas, and there joined the group of saints around the great Babaji.